I remember during my two years of community college I held myself to a certain set of standards. I’d study hard and get good grades to ensure myself an easy transfer to UC Riverside. I made sure I presented myself in a very gentleman like manner according to the way I was raised by my parents, as well as upholding the title of Saintsman that I graduated with.

Now that I’m here at UC Riverside, I feel as if just because I left that institution and met my goal, I’ve taken it for granted and let myself go. I’m no longer as motivated as I once was in school and got below a 3.0 for the first time in my entire life. I’ve also created this persona for myself that a past me would not be proud of at all. Looking at where I am in life now, honestly, I’m not proud of who I am and who I am becoming. So here’s what I’ve decided I’ll do.

• No more wasted gaps. I’ve got two 4 hour gaps on Mondays and Wednesdays. These will be devoted to study time or gym time. Depending on how much work needs to be done with school.
• Go to every Matutor session. I work better in a group setting. Alone, I find myself so easily distracted and in need of entertainment. 
• Hold myself to earlier due dates. No procrastinating on assignments. I’ll do everything at least two days prior to the due date to give myself more wiggle room when it comes to those classes with a bit of a heavier load.
• Be a Saintsman. I learned to be the best possible man I could be during my high school years. It’s about time I held myself to those standards that I preached that I was a part of for so long.
• Positivity > Profanity. I curse a lot. I insult others so easily, even complete strangers. I need to find the good in others rather than pointing out their flaws. We’re all going through our own little things and the smallest of hurtful words can make a huge negative impact on someone elses life. Give out random acts of kindness to your friends and always compliment them each day rather than insulting them.

Honestly, I just wanted to post this for myself. To serve as a public reminder of who I used to be, who I am today, and the me that I should be.